Okay, gawd its weird doing this. I'm gonna cross post what I posted at F.A.


"Alright, um, wow this is weird. Didn't think I'd have to do this anytime soon...As some of you may have already heard from Isil's F.A. journal, things have just gotten really interesting on my side of life.

Um, quick over veiw is:

I'm being kicked out of my house, have about a month give or take to figure out how things are going to work. Thanks to Isil and Brokoro I'm not crazy worried about where I'm going, I know I have a place there. What I'm worried about is expenses and such.

Currently I have no job and although I am taking the steps to look for one, the expenses of moving are alittle out of my range.

If any of you could help in ANY way I would be more then greatful, it would take a load off of my shoulders, and I'm sure everyone else involed with this whole sistuation would be beyond thankfull as well.

I know times are hard for everyone right now but if you could toss even just a dollar my way it's be enough.

Oh, and Don't forget I AM TAKING COMMISONS. I'll check F.A. as often as I can, but without interenet I may be a wee bit laggy.

If any donations could be tossed towards ~ isilbastet[at]gmail.com via paypal I'm sure I'll be more then able to do some sort of arting for you as a thank you!

Also if you could spread the word that would also be greatly apperataced!

THANKS! " 

yes yes! I'm alive~ <3

And I com bearing gifts.

>


( 7 Deadly Sins - Because the world is a better place with more of me )
and mooore



( Deep Thinking - This is actuly fun and interesting. )
and last one!



( Relationship Preferences - Duh )

So... I'm SEMI switching Jorunals, as in, everything from this point back is going to be locked and this is becoming an art and furry only jorunal.

If your want to actully keep up with what going on with me, and trust me theres alot, add cyansin, though do take the time to read the opening post.

KTHANKSBAI

Thanks to Isil I've been happily granted a Wiki Fur page about myself. I'm currently in the works of adding to it and such and I welcome those who feel like they know me to add to it as well.

=D

And because I'm paranoid I'll be keeping a copy of it on my computer just in case.

Yes, I really am that paranoid.

http://furry.wikia.com/wiki/Sin_Kaline

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want -- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

Well...I need money...food and stuff is starting to become and issue...and consider I may be moving out in a while...welll money is important, but of course I'm not going to simply ask you to give me your money, that would be childish of me.

Wants a con badge?



And a couple examples





I can either do the letting like that, or like...um...actually hand written and digitally gone over.

If your interested let me know. Badges will be printed onto card stock and shipped via us mail, its and extra dollar to have them laminated.

...you crazy bastard you. =3

I'm looking back at old journals...


I've changed so much...

And yet...I'm still the same person.

Soo, yay! Random road trip! ^_^ and its offical, I am on califur staff ^^

( Before I get blasted, this has nothing to do with people who actually spent TIME on who there are, so please no hard feeling among friends.)


So Yeah...I Will be doing a con report...just not now because I have something else on my mind that I want some ideas about....because its starting to bug me...mainly after con.

Random Fur. 'So what are you?'
Me out of suit. 'A wolf snow leopard hybrid.'
Other Fur. 'Oh, you mean like a Tani da Real rip off?'
Me silently fuming. 'Theres more then just that.'

I;m sorry, but most of the time, I get that and really its starting to tick me off, more so now that there be more and more wolf snowmew hybrids running around. I choose the fursonia because it was differnt, and because it fits me.

I mean, I am a therian, thats something I've know since I was a wee little one. I spent a long time working myself out and deciding just what I truly was, it took me at least a year to finally settle. Wolf as somewhat my main personality, though snow leopard healthily mixed in. Its who and what I am.

I'm sooo bloody tired of people telling me I riped someone off, when thats just who I am.

In all honesty, I'm about ready to drop my fursona completely, and start with something new, something that people wont go ' oh you mean like....' I'm getting tired of it, really I am.

And yet, I don't want to drop the kaline all together, I mean, why? Why should I have to drop something thats important to me, because of a few last minute ' oh that looks cool' fursonas?

Ugh...I don't know...

Maybe another hybrid.
Different specie of spotted cat and differnt type of canine.

....Any ideas?

So...A lot of awesome happened to me today.

1) I got my fursuit
2) I got a semi job
3)...I just had a good day
4) a lot of other stuff but I don't feel like going into that.


Heh, Califur on Fri, I'm happy and I'm ready.

Its official, I'm confused...

Yeah....I'm Fuck.


THANK YOU FOR FUCKING ME OVER MISS ' I'll pick it up tomorrow'

DAMN IT! >.<


I feel like curling up into a whole I dieing. Yes...because I don't have the money...yes before I'm probably going to have to pay on sun IF I GET ANYTHING FROM MY DAD.


-Slack head against wall- WHY DO I LISTEN TO ASSHOLES!?

Alright, lets all do some math then...aye?

Alright we have...

50 from the dear fox.
40 from pawning the scooter
15 from Venice
65 from Blue Monday.
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170

Not horrible..no...Still short, but not the 'O_O OMG AHHHHH' type

Argh...I HATE the fact that I'm doing this...but ...need help

Most of you know I'm a pretty proud person so this is alittle hard for me to do ( s'one of the reason's I'm not calling / im-ing/ or emailing you personally. But I need help, Califurs nearly here, and I've got to finish paying off my fursuit....sadly I'm alittle short. I'm trying my hardest to get more money, but worst comes to worse...

-Sighs and looks towards the ground.- Is there anyway that any of you could spot me some cash? I'm good for it. Meaning I'll pay you back frist chance I get... I just don't knew exzactly when that will be.


If you can...let me know? Thanks? <3's to all of you who even read this.

....I have to get this out, its ticking me off and I've I don't say something I think I'm going to explode. -sarcastic smile-

Hey dad, thanks for blaming me for my mothers death, I mean really thanks, that really makes me feel good about myself. Oh! and that concussion I got last Thursday? The one you say I got simply because I oh I don't know....'tripped'? Yeah thanks for that to, lords knows I love the stress headaches I'm now getting because of it. I'm finding it hard to grasp the fact that, hey I'm your daughter, you shouldn't be treating me like shit, because well you've done it my whole life. The only thing is mother isn't actually around to stop you anymore. Oh and hey, you know how the dogs and cat were always fed on time? Lets see you do that because I'm done. You know how some mornings there was actually food waiting for you? Well screw that I'm done. I'm done with helping you seeing as I 'don't do anything around the house but bitch'. So yeah, lets just see what thats like for you then hmm? Oh! And another thing! About mum. You know she wanted you out of the house so bad, sometimes thats the only thing she would ever say to me, how she was tired of you, how much you stressed her out, how you, yes you mister big man, never helped out around the house. Your the one who as at fault for her death, she died of stress, of over exerting herself with all the house work that you never touched. Nothing more, nothing less. OH! And hey, thanks really thanks. For throwing away all of her stuff, for given everything that you though was 'vaulable' to my god forsaken sister who is no better then you.I don't understand what my mother ever say in you, nor how she raised someone to be such a horrible person.

I'm tired...Oooh so very tired of this shit, its making me bitter, making me lose the love for life that I once had, making me want to slip back into oh so unhealthy habits.

But I degress, I also truly want to thank you.

Because at least I know that when I leave, that the day that you come home and theres no body there. Then old man, you will be alone.

But I will be surrounded by my friends.

And that is something that I indeed can feel happy about.

What I hate most....what I hate the very most is the fact that the only thing this is doing is making me bitter, making me hate my life just a little more each day. I'm getting tired of this, really I am.


I can't even ask a god damned question without getting yelled at.

Apparently I don't do shit around the house, fuck you no I don't BECAUSE I NEVER LEAVE MY ROOM!

Oh and hey, thanks for blaming my mother death on me, yeah, really nice. CONSIDERING I WASN'T EVEN FUCKING THERE WHEN IT HAPPENED YOU HIPOCRITICAL BASTARD.

Yeah sure I fucking stressed her out, when was the last time I fought with her? UNLIKE YOU!

...if she was here, if I told her what you did, she would never forgive you. And I know this.


....


.....And yet my view on life is still getting more and more tainted by the day.

The longer I'm trapped here, the worst it gets.


....-sighs-


Gives me fucking headaches.

...I'm getting fucking tired of this shit.